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Well I went to the doctors and everything looks good.  Still doesn’t know why I am having the pains that I have been having or even what cause the Ectopic pregnancy.  I  am still recovering  from the surgery and should be pain free soon.

This past week we went to Huntsville and we now have a place to move in. Thanks to my home girl Misty, we have found an apartment and we love it =). I also have 2 job interview line up too, so the move is going to happen sometime next month.

This weekend is my 10 year high school reunion in FL. I have not seen a lot of my friends since high school and thanks to myspace, I have reconnected with a few. See I was not very liked in high school and was a known as a “non-cool geek.” See we had 2 levels of geekness, popular geek and non-cool geek.  My senior year of high school I was in the middle of the 2 levels because i was on the color guard and was apart of the school AV/ morning show/WCHS team. I loved my press pass.

So in honor of my geekness here is a song from Enigma.  I love this song when it came out in the US in 1994 and I have even used this song (and others) in dance recitals and competitions.

Return to Innocence  (1994)

Next month is June

BTW June 3rd is my anniversary. Yep 7 years. I love you Jason.

Hey all,

Well I made. I can not longer say that I have never had surgery. I am doing better than last night. I had to stay at the hospital overnight due to a little fever and feeling sick every time I got up.

So I am going back to my bed. Feel free to call or text or something like that =)

Until next time

Well tomorrow is the day that I go under for the first time. I am still freaking about about it but not to bad.

My friend Asai came over and watched Heroes with Jason and I (I love that show) last night and while I cleaned, Asai was playing Guitar Hero (yes, I have Guitar Hero and I love our new x box 360 elite).

Jason has been a big help this month and today was a fun day. I got a body pillow that is as taller then me (yes i know, everything is taller then me), clean my house (yep still moving), and I got my toes done (yes although I am NOT a girly girl, i still get my toes done). Plus I got the coolest pirates shirt which is green camo with pirates on it. This shirt would even match my pink camo hat with pirates on it.

So yes tomorrow is the day. Please send all your happy thoughts to me k and not be afraid to check on me if you want.

Next week I will be going home for my 10 year high school reunion and i heard this on the radio =0) i know it is the 80’s but hey I lived in the 80’s

enjoy

So I had my pre-op and it took too long. The doctor’s appointment long ( it was at 10am, did not see him until 10:40am). After meeting with him, I had to go to the hospital and do blood work. Thank God for post casting =) because we waited for a hour and 1/2 for them to call me back to a room to take my blood and do an EKG. So while we were waiting, we listen to Buzz Out Loud (Cnet) and the Official ABC Lost cast. I am still very scared about this and it is draining all around. My school work is still going good and I am taking 1 class right now.

So week one of 3 is over. Next week (wed, the 23) is the surgery and then my post up on the 30th.

So yeah. I am still in school too and although I don’t agree with some of things Dr. Jerry Falwell has done and said, I am sad that I won’t get to meet him next year at graduation. For some of you that may not know, I am student at Liberty U as a Distance Learning student. Liberty has been very good to me this year and I am glad to be finishing in August.

Until next time

Well this month has been kinda hell so far. This past week my friends Stephen and Misty had their 2 second child (congrats you two, and Eil too). Two weeks ago I found out that my sister back in Florida is having her 3rd child and so is my cousin. Then last weekend when I was in Huntsville, I found out that Jason has two cousin who are having kids. Then there is me, nothing but having surgery to make sure I can have kids.

To some of you, it sounds like I am being bitchy about this, but I am not. I really never had a problem with mothers day because I have a mom who loves me a lot, but now I don’t know how to feel. I was almost a mom and now knowing that my sister (who is not married and is not living a good life) is having a baby in the same month that I would had mind, it hurts 10x worse.

Well Wednesday is my pre-op appointment and then the surgery on the 23rd. Please feel free to leave comments and good thoughts on here. If you want to use any other sources of communication thats find too.

Oh to all my friends who are mom’s, I still love you and happy mothers day.

Until next time

Well it is May and so much is going on. We are still planning to move this month and hopefully will be making so progress. This weekend we are going to Huntsville and can’t wait. I need to get out of Atlanta and just relax. I am very happy about the move, but I don’t wait to say goodbye to the people who really care for me here in Atlanta. Yes we are moving to a town where people, but because of recent events, I  feel lonely and judged sometimes. I wish I could have a redo, but I know that I need to work on my present.

Along with the moving, i am having surgery. I would be lieing if I told you that I was not scared, but I am. I am terrified.  I am scared about not waking up. I am scared that my hearth will go nuts. I am scared that even if the surgery fixes everything, I still would have problems becoming a mom. I am just so scared. I have been having nightmares of being tortured and I just want to rest. I just want to be the “Treeva” that everyone loves and be me.  I just want to be able to go some where, where I don’t get depressed about losing my child and be jealous  of my friends who are pregnant or who just had one. I just want to be me again.

Well, I am tried and need to rest. Thanks for letting me slip this out.

Until next time