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Can you ever think of a time that you had  a true “God moment” at work?  A moment in time where you are at work and God just makes an appearance from out of nowhere. Well that is what happen to me today. As some of y’all know, I have been working for a Christian school/preschool/daycare for about a year (next month will be a year) as an assistant teacher and I teach sign language  during the school year. Well today was truly a God moment.

One of the greatest things about working at a Christian school is that my little 3 and 4 year olds get to hear from Gods words. Today Pastor Ron (my main boss) told the story of Job. Yes, he told them all about how Job lost his animals, his children, his wife, and how even some of his friends even told him that he must of been a bad person and that God was punishing Job.  Pastor Ron told the children that even thought Job had lost everything, Job still loved God and through Job’s faithfulness and his love for God, Job was blessed with a new family, friends, and even more animals. One of my favorite things that Pastor Ron loves to do sometimes is tell them a story about himself. Well Pastor Ron told them about how him and his wife  first baby daughter had died. He told them that although they were sad about losing a child, they gave that pain to God and that they where happy that God gets to see her everyday and how God even blessed Pastor Ron and his wife with more daughters.  The main point that he told the children was that although sometimes bad things and suffering happens, God love us no matter what.

WOW

This past week I have been very emotional with this whole fertility stuff and all the confusing and difficulty that come with it.  After hearing the story of Job, part of me has been like Job’s wife and friends and the other part of me is like Job. Job’s wife and friends kept feeding him his head with thoughts and lies like “what have you done to make God angry with you” or ” God never loved you” or ” If God really loves you, why are you suffering.”  Lately Satan has been putting lies and thoughts in my head just like Job’s family and friends did. Mine are more like “You will never be a parent” or “God is punishing you” or even ” just give up. the fertility treatments are not going to work.”  On the other hand, the “Job” side of me is truly identifying and  is able to convince myself that in fact these are truly lies and that I know that God loves me and that I am just rest in him, just like Job did. Now is that AWESOME or what.

During Job’s difficult time, his friends laugh and  talked down to him.  They didn’t understand what was going on and they acted on it. I am truly blessed that  I have friends who are walking with me during this difficult time in my life that has  not experience what I am going through.  I am even blessed for the friends who are walking with me and knows what I am going through.  I am also glad for a husband, who for 9 years has stood beside me through some really hard time.

Also this past week I have had two songs in my head. One of the songs is a beautiful song by Wes King.  I have wrote about this song before and wanted to post the words again.  This is how I have been feeling and wanted to share it again. Also this might help some of you understand how I am feeling at this moment.

Thought you’d be here
by Wes King

We thought you’d be here by now
Your mother and I

We’re praying through our tears that somehow
We might hear your sweet cry

Have we waited too long
It’s getting harder to be strong
Is there something we’ve done wrong

But if you like dancing
I’ll make it rain rhythm and rhyme and melodies, child
And if you like dreaming
Your mother will make your imagination run wild
Somehow, we thought you’d be here by now

We have a room just for you upstairs
It’s right down the hall
So we’ll be close should you ever get scared
We’ll come when you call

It’s a room full of stories
Waiting to be told
Longing to behold

And if you like laughing
I’ll plaint you a circus of smiles and ferris wheels, dear
And if you like living
Your mother will fly you to worlds both far and near
Somehow . . .

I never knew the silence could make me so deaf
I never knew I could miss someone I’ve never met
Miss someone I haven’t met yet

We’ll be waiting

The other song is a song that I has been kinda like my song at this moment. I bet that even Job would love this song.

The More I Seek You – Kari Jobe

Until next time