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So in my last blog post I briefly talked about two events that happened in the month of September and on how this year would be different. Well it was. For the 1st time in about 8 years since the accident happen, all those emotions and physical reminders that would gone on were finally gone. No crying or being withdrawn from the world. Not even feeling like it should of been me. They were all GONE. Being able to finally grieve in my own way and totally allowing God to work truly change my whole attitude about how I see this experience. Yes, I will still feel sadness for the families who lost their sons and some emotional pain, but now I know how to handle it better with what new insights. By the way, this new insight also was applied to feeling sadness when it come to losing the baby and that the baby would of been born in September. So that the update from the last post.
Now it is October and I am officially 31 years old. I can now say that I in my early 30’s. I had one of the best birthdays ever. I have some of the greatest friends that helped me celebrate and I love them all . When I was younger my mom would give me a party but no one would show up. As I got older my birthday was celebrate at an Acteens event with some friends I knew from camp and even some of my counselors from camp. Then when I got married my views on birthdays got better and even my kids at work celebrate my birthday.
Being 31 is cool. I still get carded and the parents of the kids I work with still think I am in my 20’s. So how do I keep my self young these days? Well I have started going to a Bible study that a sweet friend of mine (I will call her J) is doing with some college girls at a school here in Huntsville and it has been good for me. I really like the way J teaches and the girls are cool. The only down side of this is that the study is at 8am and in order to be at work on time at 9am, I have to leave about 15 mins early, so I miss the good stuff. I don’t like having to leave early but its good to know that they welcome me and are glad that I am even there with them.
Well thats all for right now. Next month is going to be crazy and I can’t wait =). Will write more later.
Until next time
